My life has been in turmoil, since birth it seems. And I’d never felt
as lost as I did the day I set foot in Maximum Security Prison at the
age of 16. I’d never had much, and the few family I had were not
what I wanted to be. I grew up on the street with few friends and was
forced to grow up fast. It was extremely lonely at times, but nothing
like the first night I sat alone in a small prison cell. All things all
thoughts came rushing forward in my mind. And only then did I
realize that my path was one of Deception, Darkness and Regret.
Being unsure how to right my passage through life, I continued to
revert to my old habits and ways, and every time, I ended up with
more questions and less answers.
I had just about given up, lost hope and called it quits when
I happened upon a small piece of literature speaking about the truth.
I was intrigued, but very skeptical. All I ever known in life was
darkness of the world which led me to believe there was no
God, and if there was He must have forgot about me
and my struggle.
Picking up the New Testament was confusing to say the
least. I had no idea where to start, what to look for, or what I
was looking for. Starting from Matthew, I took a chance and
just decided to let in whatever came. The instant feeling of
hope came over me, it was as if someone set their hand on my
shoulder and comforted me, (something I’ve never felt before).
I’ve never gone to Church and have no real idea of how to
be a religious person. All I know is that reading the Word of
God turned on a light inside my dark soul. I have no desire to
go back to being unloved and lost. It is hard because cutting
loose of my old friends and ways has only brought ridicule.
I long for the support and guidance from those that know
the truth , and feel the love that I do in God’s word. I have
taken the first steps and can only pray that there are those
out there who can help me along my path to repentance.
I’d truly appreciate any guidance or correspondence that is
of the Lords plan. I never knew love until I found God and
seek those who know what I am going through. I l live in a
place that breaths evil and darkness, but have discovered
a lightened tunnel, and long for the companions that will help
see me through.
My name is Adam and I welcome any guidance and support.
May Gods peace and love be with you.
Posted May 27, 2009
